Beda

“ Lu koq makan mie ayam kayak gitu sih, itu jadinya mie kuah dong.” Katanya.
“Gua suka koq nuangin kuahnya ke mienya, lbih enak menurut gw.” Sambil menyumpit semangkok mie ayam masuk ke dalam mulut.
“Beda ya ama gua, ahhaha, kalo gua ga suka mie ayam gw basah kek gitu.”
“Punya lu sih lebih aneh, dituangin sambel ama kecap trus dikocok kek gitu, kayak indomi goreng.”
‘Enak tau, coba deh.” Dia menggulung mie dengan garpu, dipotong pake sendok, lalu menyuapkannya ke gua.
“Aneh akh, beneran kayak indomi goreng, mending masak sendiri di rumah.”
“Lunya aja yg aneh.” Sambil mencibir
“Anw, lu koq makan mie pake garpu sendok, ga bisa pake sumpit apa?”
“Ga bisa, gua klo megang sumpit kayak megang bolpen, jadi ga enak makannya.”
“Lu kalah tuh sama mamangnya, mamangnya aja ngocok puluhan mangkok mie pke sumpit.” Kata gw sambil nunjuk ke arah mamang yang jualan.
“Mau pake garpu ato sumpit kan ga ngurangin rasanya sih.”

Kami menikmati menu mie ayam pinggir jalan, bisa dibilang ini kencan pertama kami. Gua kenal dia dari awal kuliah, sekelas 3 semester berturut – turut membuat gua berani ngajak dia keluar jalan bareng.
Saat es teh kami datang, dia memasukan sedotan, menutup ujungnya degan jari, diambil, dibalik, lalu membuka jarinya, membuang teh yang ada di dalamnya.

“Lu ngapain sih kayak gitu? Aneh de.”
“Ini buat bersihin bagian dalam sedotannya, tau!”
“Astaga, daripadi gitu mending liat gua nih.”
Gua pilin sebuah sedotan dr ujung ke ujung.
“Sentil nih tengahnya.”

Dia melakukannya tanpa menanyakan apa alasan gua
POP!! Setengah dari orang yang ada di warung itu ngeliatin kami.

“Gila lu!! Bikin malu aja, orang – orang pada ngeliatin tau!!”
“Hhahahah, lu juga disuru nurut aja, lucu kan? Hahaha.”
“Lucu dari Hongkong, malu – maluin sih iya!!”
“Mau kemana abis ini?” Tanya gua
“Ga tau, yang jelas gw bosen klo lu ngajak gua ke mall!”
“Kenapa? Bukannya cewe suka ya klo diajak ke mall?”
“Bosen, tapi gua mau beli buah sih, kemana ya?”
‘Owh ada pasar buah sih deket sini, mau kesana?”
“Bole deh.”

Kami pun berjalan menyusui trotoar di tengah teriknya matahari siang dan panasnya asap knalpot.

“Kenapa ga mau naik mobil aja sih, panas gila begini, di kulit sampe cekit- cekit.” Protes gua saat tawaran pergi ke pasar buah naik mobil ditolak dan dia memilih untuk berjalan.
“Soalnya ribet kalo harus nunggu lu kluarin mobil, jalan, parkir lagi, boros duit parkir! Lagian lu bilang juga deket ini”
“Alesan lu, bilang aja mau jalan beduaan ama gua.”
‘Najis, wakakakaka, anw, koq lu bisa tau ada pasar buah deket sini?”
“Langganan dari kecil, nyokap gua sering banget beli disini, lu mau beli apa emang?”
“Pisang.” Jawabnya dengan lempeng
“PIsang?? Di pasar kan pisangnya item – item gitu sih, mending beli pisang Cavendish di mall!”
“Pisang Cavendish ama stiker ‘Sunpride’ bikin harganya naik jadi 12ribu sekilo, no thx deh.”

Kami pun sampai di tukang buah langganan gua, abis milih ini itu kita pun pulang, dia beli pisang raja dan gua beli apel fuji. Di tengah jalan, gw bukan kresek gua dan makan apelnya sebiji

“Ga lu kupas dulu tuh apel?”
“Ga, gua suka begini, lagian vitaminnya banyak di kulitnya tau.”
“Owh, gua sih ga bisa makan apel pake kulitnya, nyempil semua di gigi gua, jadi musi dikupas dulu.”

Kami pun balik, gua anter dia ke rumahnya dulu. Akhirnya kami pun sampai di rumahnya, sebelum dia turun dia bilang.

“Thx for today.” Kata dia.
“Thx for what?”
“Gua kira lu bakal behave, jadi orang yang ga gua kenal selama ini, tapi ngga, gua suka tetep jadi elu.”
“Owh, hahaha. Tapi gua baru sadar lho, kita ternyata beda banget, ga kayak di kampus, we always have the same idea.”
“Jadi? Lu lebih suka kalo gua selalu punya kesamaan kek lu ? gitu maksud lu?”
“Ngga, bukan itu maksud gua. Gua ngerasa kayak, sekali lagi berkenalan dengan lu, dan sekali lagi jatuh cinta sama lu.”
“Gombal lu, wakakkakak.”
“Serius nih gua, gua ga mau punya pacar yang 100% sama kek gua, keknya koq gw pacaran sama diri gua sendiri. Tapi kalo sama elu, asik aja, justru perbedaan yang ada bikin gua makin suka ama lu.”
“Anjis, jijik bahasa lu, wuakakkaka, geli gua dengernya.” Dia tertawa ngakak.
“Iya deh puas – puasin aja ketawanya.”
“Gua sepikiran sama elu, Cuma gua ga bisa secara frontal bilang keq lu tadi.”
“Besok mau jalan lagi?” Tanya gua.
“Liat besok gimana deh,dah akh, cape gua, bye!” dia pun turun.

Gua pun jalan balik ke rumah gua, dengan memori tentang hari ini. Tentang untuk kesekian kalinya, gua ngerasain jatuh cinta sama orang yang sama. Tertakjub atas semua perbedaan yang ada, tapi justru itu yang bikin jadi indah.
Gua siap untuk cari tahu apa bedanya gua dan dia, dan gua siap untuk jatuh lebih dalam lagi.

game i shouldn't play

"thing that I really want to write these past three days, but still thinking bout what to write, so here it is"

I am a gamer
I play with many games.
I love it.

Till one day, i play with a game that i shouldn't play.

this game called "Heart"
i need to pay a huge fortune to buy this game.
Excited, i played this game.

this game looks like a puzzle.
I have to put the pieces in order, so the result will be a very nice picture of something I can't tell before I finish it.
This game only allowed 2 people to play it.
so i play it with others.

put here put there.
until its almost done.
we built a relationship at the same time we played with the "Heart"
eventually, things not work out fine.

typical love story, starting out as friend, ended as a foe.

so I find someone to play with me.

it's just the same story as the 1st one, starting out as friend, ended as a foe.

so i keep looking for one.

until now I realized, there are something missing.
the "Heart" is not the same.
it became different.

lots of pieces missing, it can't be do again.

it won't show anything anymore.
and I'll never know what exactly the picture is.

and now i have to deal with the bills.
heart is the most dangerous game I ever played, i shouldn't have play with it at the very first time . . .

*inspired by a box of puzzle that i never finish.*

here comes the mellow

okay here comes the mellow

i hate being my self, I really hate it.
I'm full with negative feeling.
I have broke many hearts, including mine.
I'm afraid to open my self to others
once I let people get inside, I couldn't bear the pain.
it's weird, really weird.
when people doesn't want to be lonely, i prefer to lock my self in my own room.
but yes, I do feel lonely.
but I just couldn't let it.
it's been 2 years, people come and gone.
some remains as friends, some into a foe, the rest become a stranger again.


I'm afraid about my own future.
I'm afraid being a daddy
I dont have a real figure of daddy, how could i be one?
I'm afraid i couldnt take care my own child.

trust me, having an experience, and watching movies, reading stories, and hearing what people feels make me afraid.

don't know why,

Once i read something like this

babies who never been born is the luckiest person in this world
babies who are born but then die, also a lucky person
but one who survived and has to live this life is the cursed one, because one has to feel the pain on being living creature.


and i just couldn't agree more on that

(il)Lust(ion) Story

There are four stages in my relationship,
We chat,
We meet,
We fuck,
Then, we don’t know each other anymore.
I’m strongly believed that every wireless gadget is made for our convenience, which should works too for a relationship with “no string attached”.
What is commitment for if we can have some fun? Do it here, do it there, do it now, later, tomorrow, weekend, weekdays, anything should do as long as “no string attached”.
The words “can we still be friend?” is just a rhetorical question. I never call any of them again after we did it.
I am heartless, loveless, and frigid. I don’t want any emotional feeling interfere my lust life.
Don’t tell me to look at your eyes and tell me how I feel about you; we are just fuck buddy after all.
If you are looking for a long term relationship, if you are looking for someone to rely on, if you are looking for some commitment, don’t expect you’ll get it from me, because I won’t be that person.
Love and commitment is just a bound that will only put limitations in my life.
Have I ever been in love? Been there, done that, and don’t want to feel that curse again.
I am pretty well prepared; condoms and lubricants are things that I never left behind.
I don’t want to get involved into someone’s drama.
For now I’m not looking for the “right one”, I’m looking for “right now”

But,
It was him.
Man who came up with his loneliness.
A lone lonely loner.
That particular man.
Fragile.
As it’ll be broken if I touch him.
I want to keep him.
Protect him.
It was three months ago when I met him.
I felt the sensation, something that once I felt long time ago.
I want to keep him.
And let no one touch him, or even see him.
And make him mine, only mine.
Since I met him,
Nobody else come into my world.
It’s him alone who step aside by my side.
There was no lust.
Is it the curse?

“Why did u do it?” he asked me
“Do what?”
“You know, having an open relationship like that, wont you be settled with someone?”
That question hit my heart.
My life wasn’t like this before.
But this is the thing that I have forgotten.
No, I haven’t forgotten it, I won’t remember it.
“So, why did u do that?”
I just smiled.
“It’s none of your business” I said.

It was me who keep calling him.
It was me who asked him to go out.
It was me who asked him to watch a movie.
Mostly he refused it.
He said he doesn’t want ended like the others who came before him.
But no, I have no intention to do it.
I do really hope our relationship will last longer.
Funny, from at least 10 millions human in this world, what on earth I could fall on him?
What makes him different from the other?
Could it be he is the right one?

“Don’t you feel tired? Seeking for nothing?” he asked again
“I’m not looking for nothing, I’m looking for a pleasure, and I get it.”
“Are you sure? I can’t tell it by looking in your eyes, I saw emptiness.”
He hit it precisely
“You just don’t know me yet, dear.”
“Dear? Is that how you addressing me now? Come on!”
“Hahahhaha” I laughed.

Month after month passed.
My whole world is just me and he now.
There are no others.
And I hope there will be no other.
Almost a year I know him.
And I’d want to ask him.
“What do you think about me, dear?” I asked him
“Hmm, you are heartless, loveless, and frigid.”
“What?? How could you say something like that?”
“Hahaha, you said that to me long ago. So that’s what I think about you.” He smiled
I couldn’t stand his smile
I kissed him,
Right on his cheek.
He was shocked
He pulled himself backward.
“What was that for?”
“I want you dear; I want you to stay here, by my side, for the rest of my life.”
“I can’t, we shouldn’t do this!”
“For long I have been looking for nothing, and now I believe you are the right one.”
“NO! This is wrong! I must go now!”
He left me alone.
‘Dear, wait!”

I tried to catch him, run as fast as I can.
But no, I can’t find him, he was lost.
Where did he go? How come someone as fragile as him could run that fast?
He is gone. . .
I tried to call him, but no, his phone is not active.
I tried to call him thousand times, but no, his phone is dead.
There was no use to call him now; maybe I’ll just call him again tomorrow.

A day
Two days
A week
Weeks
Until a month.
There was nothing from him, not a single call.
That’s it!!
I’ll come to his place!
“There is no one like him in this place sir, I think you’ve come to the wrong place.”
“What? No way? He’s been staying here for 4 years .”
“No sir, I’m sure there is no one like him in here, I’ve been working here for 20 years.”
Damn it!!!
What trick that he played on me!!
He wasn’t live there!! He was never been there!!!
Where the hell is he!!!
I went back to all places that I have visited with him.
My favorite café
Our favorite café
His favorite café
But they give me the same answer
“You always come here alone sir.”
“I never saw you with someone else dude, are you okay?”
ARGH!!!!
What’s wrong with this world!!!!
How come they never see me with him!!!
I went back home, sulking myself in the corner.
Keep wondering where on earth you went away.
Was it just an illusion?
But that was very real
Real one
I bet it must be real
No!! It’s not an illusion!!
NO!! NO!!! NO!!

Tears,
Since when I shed this tears?
How come I cried for him?
Damn it, I can understand what is this all about!!!
I slapped myself, trying to tell myself whether I’m dreaming or not.
It hurts,
So it’s real,
I should call him!!
Yes I’ll call him!!
I took my phone and dial his number!!
Out of service
I call again,
And again,
And again,
Till it runs out of battery.
I cried as loud as I can

“CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW!! ARE YOU SATISFIED TO MAKE ME SUFFERED LIKE THIS!!”
I cried and cried
It was my fault
I shouldn’t let my heart interfere my life,
I should be heartless, loveless, and frigid.
That’s how I should be
Heartless,
Loveless,
Frigid.

maybe

maybe



if we just could hold ourselves back



our story won't be like this.



maybe



if we could understand each others intension.



our story will be different



maybe



if we just said it clearly at the first time



maybe, its just maybe



if we could start it all over again



if we just . . . . .



nah nevermind . . . .



something that has been done, can never be re-do



maybe we can have a great story



maybe . . .



it just maybe . . .

apa salahnya?

perna ga sih kalian denger cerita seperti ini???



Sebuah bis datang, dan kau bilang, "Wah...terlalu sumpek dan panas, nggak bisa duduk nyaman nih !! Aku tunggu bis berikutnya saja x ya!!"

Kemudian, bis berikutnya datang. Kamu melihatnya dan berkata, "Aduh bisnya kurang asik nih dan kok gak cakep begini dan tidak menarik bagi saya... nggak mau ah.."

Bis selanjutnya datang, cool dan kau berminat, tapi dia seakan-akan tidak melihatmu dan melewatimu begitu saja.

Bis keempat berhenti di depan kamu. Bis itu kosong, cukup bagus, tapi kamu bilang, "Nggak ada AC nih, gw bisa kepanasan". Maka kamu membiarkan bis keempat pergi..

Waktu terus berlalu, kamu mulai sadar bahwa kamu bisa terlambat pergi ke kantor. Ketika bis kelima datang, kau sudah tak sabar, kamu langsung melompat masuk ke dalamnya. Setelah beberapa lama, kamu akhirnya sadar kalau kamu salah menaiki bis. Bis tersebut jurusannya bukan yang kau tuju!

Dan kau baru sadar telah menyiakan waktumu sekian lama..

Moral dari cerita ini, sering kali seseorang menunggu orang yang benar-benar 'Ideal' untuk menjadi pasangannya. Padahal tidak ada orang yang 100% memenuhi keidealan kita. Dan kau pun sekali-kali tidak akan pernah bisa menjadi 100% sesuai keinginan dia.

Tidak ada salahnya memberi kesempatan kepada yang berhenti di depan kita. Tentunya dengan jurusan yang sama seperti yang kita tuju. Apabila ternyata memang tidak cocok, apa boleh buat.. tapi kau masih bisa berteriak 'Kiri !' dan keluar dengan sopan.

Cerita ini juga berarti, kalau kau benar-benar menemukan bis yang kosong, kau sukai dan bisa kau percayai, dan tentunya sejurusan dengan tujuanmu, kau dapat berusaha sebisa kamu untuk menghentikan bis tersebut di depanmu. Dia memberi kesempatan kau masuk ke dalamnya.



apa salahnya dengan penantian??

apa salahnya berusaha menyamankan diri sendiri dengan keadaan??

salah ya mengharap dapet yg 100%??

ngga cape apa gonta ganti "bis" mlulu??

sebelum naik ke "bis", bukannya kita bsa ngebaca "jurusan" mana yg dituju??



bukannya klo ga ada bis, kita bisa naik taksi ya??



i just cant understand this world @.@

how to decor an empty heart?? (part2)

well, its been 20 months i left my heart empty



dan sampe saat ini pun masih ttp kosong



sejujurnya kmaren udah ada perabot2 yg ditaksir



catnya pun udah nemu yang bagus.



udah ada bayangan bakal gmn bentuk ruangan yang baru.



sayangnya gw ga hati2.



gw lupa nutup pintu.



ada angin ribut yg bikin kotor lantainya



ada maling yg nyolong perabotannya



ada kucing liar yg masuk dan numpahin cat di mana2.



pusing . . .



capek . . . .



akh, should i left it empty?



left it plain?



tapi bosen juga klo kosongan terus. . .



pengen naruh kursi untuk duduk. .



pengen gelar karpet untuk lesehan. .



ada meja bulet 1 ditengah



ada AC, ato kipas angin juga cukup. .



ga perlu mewah yg penting nyaman dan bikin betah..



yah, kosongin lagi deh . .



nunggu lagi nemu "perabot' yg tepat. . .



utk skrg, berusaha menyamankan diri dgn apa aja yang ada..



walopun pada dasarnya ga ada apa-apanya =)

the law of swearing

pernah ga sih lu blg anjing, monyet, babi, dsbnya??



ga mau jadi muna, gw ngomong koq.



sometimes, cuma ekspresi itu yg tepat untuk mengekspresikan apa yg ada di otak.



biarpun org lain mau judge gw apaan.



loh ini kan mulut gw, bukan mulut lu!



blg mulut gw ga perna sekolah, harusnya lu ngaca, lu yg bikin gw ngomong keq gitu, artinya sikap lu sndiri jga ga perna sekolah dong!



hohoho



biarpun kita manusia, but sometimes, we act like an animal :D

hate my self

gw benci dgn diri gw sendiri



dgn isi otak gw yg terkadang over reacting pada suatu hal yg kurang, bahkan ngga penting



yg terlalu memikirkan satu hal yg harusnya ga dipikirin, tp ttp gw pikirin.



gw benci jd org yg gampang mellow



dengan hawa negatif yg selalu bercokol di otak



dan berakhir dgn pertanyaan 'why'



padahal gw tau, klo'why' nya gw ga akan pernah ada jawabannya

(dan dengan bodohnya ttp gw pertanyakan dlm otak gw, sekali lg gw benci isi otak gw sendiri)



pengen rasanya sekali2 ngelepas otak sebentar, biar rileks dan tenang, ga kepikiran hal2 itu lagi.



cari kesibukan?? SUDAH



tapi kesibukan gw malah bikin gw jatuh lbih dalam ke awang2 yg ngga ptg.



menuliskannya dlm bentuk crita pun ngga ngebantu gw untuk get rid of it.



dan dgn dodolnyam, semua pikiran gw kebawa sampe mimpi dan jadi nightmare -.-

(hari ini aja udah bangun dgn ga tenang sampe 5x dgn 5 nightmares yg berbeda )



capek....



dan gw yakin temen2 gw juga udah cukup capek dgn sikap gw yg sperti ini



bbrp dr mereka malah mungkin annoyed dgn sikap gw dan nggangep gw aneh.



masa lalu ngebikin gw jadi seorang pemikir yg sekali lagi, memikirkan secara berlebihan sesuatu yg kurang dan bahkan kurang penting.



yang kembali ngebuat gw berharap, utk bsa sejenak ngelepas otak gw.



mencoba utk tidur, smoga bsa tenang sampai pagi tanpa nightmares

I Love You

I walked into my room, throwing away my bag and my ankle boots. I opened my cup board and look trough the mirror hanging inside. I saw a beautiful girl, with pink lipstick, natural colored powder, light pink blush on, brown eyebrow, mascara, eye liner, pink eye shadow. How beautiful she is with that make up. Everybody admired her beauty. Every man would fall in love with her at the first sight. But then, she remembered. A girl. She wore no makeup. She didn’t know how to wear any makeup. But still, you can see her beauty.

I looked inside the cupboard, seeing all of her clothes. From genuine to fabulous. From skirt to hot pants. From gown to tank top. Everything looked stunning when I wear it. Every eyes will look at me when I walk in the crowd, they will say,“ Look how beautiful she is.” or ”My, that suits you perfectly.”. I can walk proudly with it. Then again, I remembered. The same girl. She only wore t-shirt and jeans, but she can walk confidently, doesn’t really care about what other people said about her outfit.

I touched my hair. How smooth it is. I would die if I have to go when I’m having a BHD. Spending a whole day in salon was not a big deal for me. Dye it, curl it, smooth it, ironing it, ion-ing it, I’ll do whatever it takes to make it beautiful. Bob, straight, curly, blonde, brunette, everything I tried to see which one suits me the best. Then again, I remembered the same girl. She never did anything on her hair. Shampoo and conditioner is the only thing that ever touched her hair. But, she is really confident with her ponytail.

I looked at my perfume bottles. Every smell for every different occasion. Flowers, fruits, woods, sea, air, coffee, green tea, spices, I have like every smell in the world. Use it and people will notice me. Once again, I remembered the same girl. She only used deodorant. But she feels comfortable with it.

I smoke, I drink. Everything needed to be “socialized”. Hanging out with friends, clubbing, drinking liquor is already part of my lifestyle. Every weekend, clubbing is a must, don’t care what my problems are, as long as I have my cigar, couple drinks, and fast beat music, everything will be all right. Once again, that girl came to my mind. She didn’t need any cigar or liquor to be “socialized”.


I walked into the bathroom, open the water tap and let the water running from the shower. I let the water fell on my face. I cried. I’m hardly recognized who I am right now. I was that girl.

A smart independent girl.

Never feel insecure.

Live the life to the max.

Long I stayed under the shower. Regretting every single thing that I have done. Being like stupid bitch. Hooked up on every cute and hot guy. I don’t know since when I have changed into bitch like now. I moved from little town in the middle of nowhere. I moved to change my life. But this is not the changes that I expected. I walked and see the reflection on myself at the mirror once again.

PRANG!!

I broke the mirror. Smash it into pieces. Cried more loudly. I can’t stand this shame. I took the biggest piece of glass. I tried to cut my own hand.

Trembling.

Scared.

Disappointed.

I am not brave enough to do it. I tried to sober myself. I rubbed my tummy, something moving inside. There is a baby inside.

“I am sorry sweetheart. I love you. And I’ll not kill you.”

run

“Haa…Haa…Haa...Haa…”
“Will you slowdown .”
“Haa…Haa…Haa...Haa…”
“Hei Vic, slowdown!!”
“Haa…Haa…Haa...Haa…”
He patted my shoulder
“SLOWDOWN VIC!”
“Owh, it’s you, sorry I don’t hear you, Syu.”
“Since when you are running with an iPod?”
“Since today, why?”
“Didn’t you said people who are running with an iPod are pathetic.”
“Did I? Why would I say that?” I keep running and running and running.
“Because you said people who are running with an iPod are lonely, they don’t have anyone to have a chat with. What happen to you?”
“Nothing, just nothing, I’m fine, I’m totally fine!!”
“No! I know you are not okay!!”
I just ignored him and keep running .Yes, I’m not okay, yes, I am hurt. And I don’t want to think about it so I just keep running and running. I tried to get it away from my head. It’s been a while, but still, I can’t accept it. All the promises, all the tears, all the love, everything is nothing now. Lies, lies, and lies. It was nothing but a lies.
Am I not good enough?? What’s wrong with me?? Am I a freak?? Am I ugly?? Why did he leave me for someone else?? I don’t know why. That’s why I kept running. Because when I stopped, I started to think about him anymore. And thinking about him only hurts me more deeply. I don’t want another heart ache. My ankles hurt, but my heart hurt more deeply.
Everything was fine, everything was perfect, we were a perfect for each other. But why?? He said he loves me, he said I was his everything, I was his world, and that was a lie. I never knew his real face.
BUGH!!
“Argh!!” My ankles got a cramp

“Vicky!!” Syu came to me.
“hegh, hegh, damn it!!” I started to cry
“Come on, let’s move over and take care your legs.” He helped me to move.

Tears started to burst in my eyes, all the pains that I’ve been kept, I can’t bear it anymore. Why? Why? And why? Keeping asking why only leads me to another ‘why?’.The more I tried to find the reason, the more I get lost, and more I get hurt. And now, I’m ended up like I have nothing worth to be fighting for. All the efforts ended with nothing. Now, all I want to do is crying, cry it out loud, I don’t care where am I right now.
“What happened, Vic?”
“He is breaking up with me, he is with someone else now, he just playing around with me, Syu.”
“That Jerk??!! And you are crying for him? Come on he is not worth for it!!”
“I don’t know, I feel like an idiot.” I am sobbing
“Vic, I was in your position too back there, yes, I was cried for a woman who cheated on me. I know it’s really hard. But you can’t waste your time crying for him for the rest of your life. You have to move on!”
“If moving on means forget everything about him, then, I don’t want to move. It’s hard to forget every memory we have." I said.
“Look Vic, have you ever been to Dufan?”
“Yes, I went there last year.”
“Well, life is like Dufan, there are a lot of choices you can pick. You can ride the jet coaster, the tornado, everything you like. You can be happy, you can be scared, you can be thrilled, you can feel ashamed, but you want the safeties ride. And then, you tried the carrousel. You were very excited whit the carrousel. Then u kept rides it for a long time. You kept sitting in the same place. But, unfortunately, the carrousel is broke, you can’t ride it anymore. You don’t want to ride another thing; the carrousel is the only thing matter for you. You keep your eyes on it. Without realizing it, Dufan is about to closed. You will be kicked out, and you just wasted half of your day, staring at the broken carrousel.”
“What are you really trying to say, Syu?”
“ Your ex is the broken carrousel, you stuck with your memory about him. You have to move on Vic, this is not the end of the world”
“But, it’s easy to say, but so hard to do, Syu.”
“No one says it is easy to do it, but you got to try it.”
“So, I have to move, but where do I have to move?” I wiped my tears
“Move to somewhere else, don’t be settled, keep walking, keep your eyes and your heart open, and soon you’ll find your moment of blizz.”
Syu was right, I stuck on “the broken carrousel” for too long. I’m settled. Yes, life is never easy, but if I keep moaning about how unfortunate I am, I’ll not be able to see happiness. I can’t enjoy the “Dufan” if I keep my eyes on “the broken carrousel”. I need to move.
“Thanks, Syu, That’s a huge wake up call.” I smiled.
“Just think like this Vic. You are losing someone who doesn’t love you, but he lost someone who loves him.”
He is right, I have been trapped in the darkness for too long, pitying myself will give me nothing than another tears. Moving on is the only thing matter now, settled in the grief and sorrow is not a real option.
“Come on Syu, let’s have one more lap.” I stood and walk again.
“But your ankles?”
“I’ll be fine.”
I started to run again, run, run, and run. But for now, I’m not running away from my problems, I’m running to move on, to survived, and to be happy.

on your own

pagi ini, ketika pikiran gw sedang melayang2 gw keinget sama film dan lagu ini ( rasanya gw masih punya vcdnya di rumah) gw coba googling and dengerin lagi

dan bbrp hari lalu, ada temen gw ngasi one psychological question

ketika lu ada di suat padang rumput, dan sejauh mata memandang hanya ada rumput dan langit yg dipisahkan oleh horison, apa yang lu rasain
gw jawab : gw ngerasa bahagia, rileks, dan kesepian. . .
dan kalo gw ga salah inget, itu adalah perasaaan yg dirasakan klo gw lg sendirian

pertama gw bakal ngerasa bahagia dalam kesendirian gw, gw bisa bebas jadi apapun yg gw mau, tanpa mikirin org lain bakal ngomong apa tentang gw

lalu gw rileks dengan ngga adanya org di sekitar gw, ngga ada sesuatu yg terlalu penting untuk dijadikan prioritas

dan lalu gw sadar bahwa gw selama ini kesepian . . . . . . . .

i'm not my self

i just realized that im not my self for these couple days

i'm back into my old habit

i opened my drawer and found my cigar that i've been stored for months ago

gw jadi kek orang gila kalang kabut yg tiap ari kerjaannya mantengin hp

tiap malem nelpon my besties, Dennies, just to tell the same story every night

just wondering, how come??

keknya dulu gw bisa ga se desperado ini deh..

but why now i became like this

grasak grusuk gajelas dan gapenting

i feel like an idiot..

bego!! bego!! bego!! bego!!! bego!!!!
*jedotin kpala ke pintu*

damn it, rasanya yg dulu2 ga sampe ngebikin gw kek gini deh
*sakitnya sama sih, cuma rasanya gw bisa lbih tough deh dulu*

*menyalakan batang k4
gw bener2 bingung harus ngapain lagi dah . . . .

Bangkok Traffic Love Storry

‎"Li, people don't have boyfriends and girlfriends to be together all the
time. They have them to know that there's still someone who loves them" - Bangkok Traffic Love Story

i love this movie!! komedi percinttaan yg asik, enjoy ditonton, dan maknanya dalam, hahaha

dan satu dialog di atas yg bikin gw mikir2, apa iya ya?

apa bener itu yg skrg ini gw butuhin?

klo gw udah punya pun, apa yg bakal gw lakuin dgn pacar gw?

ber"selang" ria and then broke up after few months?

no i dont want to be like that...
jadi sedikit tamparan jga sih buat gw, hahaha

hate

i hate me
i hate you

i hate him
i hate her

i hate peace
i hate war

i hate mother
i hate father

i hate sister
i hate brother

i hate boy
i hate girl

i hate dark
i hate light

i hate boyfriend
i hate girlfriend

i hate this
i hate that

i hate these
i hate those

i hate life
i hate death

i hate angel
i hate evil

i hate heaven
i hate hell


but still, i can't hate The One Who Created All of the world

nite, bye =)

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Keyboard komputer terus berdetik
Senyum numpang lewat di bibir
Chatting, hobi yang paling kusukai seumur hidup
Duduk di depan komputer berjam – jam
YM dan MSN tak hentinya mengeluarkan bunyi aneh menandakan ada new chat
Winamp memutar musik instrumental
Saling bercomment via Friendster
Mozilla juga ngga berhenti bersuara, ada chat baru di Facebook
Terkadang tawa meledak
Menjadi seperti anak autis tertawa sendirian di depan komputer
Berbagi cerita konyol dengan kawan di berbagai tempat
Bahkan dengan teman seatap pun, YM digunakan sebagai media komunikasi


Beberapa room chat ada di taskbar, diantaranya conference chat
Saling berekenalan dan kemudian menambahkan mereka di daftar friendlist
Dan akhirnya menjadi teman akrab
Teman baru yang bisa digunakan sebagai teman ”melacur”
Menghiraukan tugas yang mustinya harus dikumpulkan jam 7 besok pagi
Lebih memilih tidak tidur untuk chatting dan mengerjakan tugas sekitar 2 jam sebelum dikumpulkan

Terjadi crush dengan beberapa kawan
Fall in love kata orang amrik bilang
Harap – harap cemas menanti seseorang
Berharap dia akan online dalam waktu dekat
Menyapanya, ngajak ngobrol, yah bahasa keren bagi anak muda skrg PDKT
Berbagi cerita ini itu, walopun kadang jadi kurang penting

Menulis status di setiap messenger, menantikan kehadirannya
Tersenyum lega ketika si dia membalas chattingan kita
Mengajak ketemuan di suatu tempat, copy darat kata orang dulu bilang
Saling menukar nomor handphone
Ketika malam melewati batasnya pun obrolan berlanjut via telepon
Saling bertanya besok mau ngapain
Berbasa basi yang basi
Intinya mah cuma 1, PDKT
Sakit hati sepertinya sudah menjadi hal yang biasa
Dikecewakan teman baru, ditinggal gebetan
Dan obatnya
Dapet teman baru, nemu gebetan baru


Sampai akhirnya kantuk menjelang
Mengucap salam kepada teman yang sedang diajak chatting
Teruama pada calon yang baru tentunya
Berharap suatu saat status naik dari teman jadi pacar

”Tidur duluan ya, ngantuk nih.”
”Yaaa, koq tidur duluan sih?”
”Iya, besok mau pergi.”
”Owh, ya sudah ati2 ya besok.”
”Iya, kamu juga cepetan tidur lho!”
”Beres deh!”
”ya sudah. Nite.”
“Nite, bye :)”

how does father and son really work?

holiday is the perfect time to spend your day with DVD's
after watched some movies, something came up in my mind

then i try to list every movie that i have

Ratatouille
tells us about a rat who tried to be a chief, his father was strongly disagree at the first time, but Remy finally prove that he can be a great cook

Shark Tale
lets talk about the shark, Leni who didn't want to eat other fish, but his father is a gang leader in the neighborhood and Luni ashamed him, at the end, his father realized that Leni was right.

National Treasure
Nicolas Cage insist to look for the greatest treasure buried at America, his father said that he just as insane as his grandfather, but at the end, Cage found the treasure and his father was wrong.

Kungfu Panda
Po is a panda who think that he can be a kungfu master, but his father wants him to run his noddle restaurant, at the end, Po become a Dragon Warrior, the greatest fighter ever.

Transformer 2
remember when Sam's parents were kidnapped? his father didnt want Sam to join the battle and told him just to runaway, at the end, Sam raise Optimus from his death.

Madagaskar 2
Alex was a performer Lion back at NY, when he came back to Africa, he met with his father, the leader of all the Lion Clan, when his father knew that Alex was not a real "king" Alex prove him self by saving his own clan.

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs
Flint wanted so bad to be a scientist, but his father wants him to run family business, about sardine, Flint's invention was a disaster, but he did invent something.

Alien in the Attic
Tom was a nerd,got blamed for everything that wasn't his mistake, his dad wouldn't understand him until Tom spoke out about his feeling toward his father.

How to Tame Your Dragon
Hiccup was the son of the chief tribe, he wants to be like his father, dragon killer, but since he is not born to do it, Hiccup make a friend with a dragon, and come with a thought that dragon is not their enemy. His father strongly against it at he wanted to kill all of the dragon.At the end, Hiccup proved that dragon is a friendly creature.

The City of Ember
Doon realized that there is something wrong with Ember and wants to leave the city, he with Lina, find the way out of Ember, his father told him to gave up, but he didn't, then Doon find the way out and proved to his dad that they can get out from Ember.

Chicken Little
Chicken said that the sky was falling apart, his dad said that was only an acorn, chicken little went inside the UFO and told the whole city that there was a UFO there, his dad didn't believe him and said that was embarrassing. But chicken little was right, and he saved the whole city.

High School Musical 1
Troy is the son of basketball trainer, but he also wants to be a singer and join the Drama Club, his father really insist him to put his concentration to basketball, at the end, Troy can perform a great song and won the game.

Finding Nemo
Nemo is a clown fish who had disabilities with his fin, his father over protecting him and makes Nemo uncomfortable, when Nemo was lost, his father tried tor rescue him. on his way, he realized how bad he was treating his own son. After he found Nemo, he tried to trust him.

father and son never get along well, father wants the son to do exactly what they said and don't bother to hear the son's explanation while in the end the son can give some proves that he was right and his father was wrong until finally the father admit it, is that really father and son how works?

or it just typical American?

You decide it by your self, as for me, this is just how father and son really works =)

Last for a Week

I opened my eyes, looked at the clock, 10 A.M. Luckily, its Saturday. My boss will kill me if I showed at the office 3 hours late. I stretched my body, and move to the other side of my bed.
“Have you wake up?’ he came to my bed
“Here, I made this coffee for u.” he handed me a cup of coffee.
“Thanks.” I took it and drank it.
“Well then, I’m leaving now.”
“Wait, can we meet again?”
“I’ll call you later. I already have your number.”
“But how could you have my number?”
He just smiled and then go.
He has my number? How could he? I checked on my phone, all of the call logs were gone. He must have called his own phone with mine, then delete my call logs so I can’t see his number. I went to my balcony. I saw him get on to a taxi and went away. I drank my coffee again, and light my cigar.

Monday
It was Monday. I was sitting alone, having my lunch at the café near my office. I always having my lunch alone, I don’t know why but that’s me. I love being alone. I can decided when will I come, when will I leave, how long I’ll stay there, and what food I that I want to eat. I don’t have any relationship right now, well I prefer to calling it as relationshit, yes relation is a shit! That’s how it works for me.

I light my cigar and started to smoke.
“Isn’t it bad for smoking?” He said
“Who are you and why are you bothering me?”
“Nah, I just want to remind you, is this seat free?” he sits down.
“I found you are always alone when you are here, don’t you have someone to accompany you?”
“I love being alone.” I answer his question
“But, don’t you feel lonely when you are alone?” he said.
“What do you mean?”
“Well, I mean having relationship. You know boyfriend and girlfriend?”
Suddenly, all of my memories from the past, they are coming back again. Yes, I do have a relationship before. I do fell in love before. I was his. I was everything. But then, he is gone, the relationship turned into relationshit. End of the story.
“No, I’m a lone lonely loner inside my own loneliness.” I said
“Wow, that’s a lot of lone there. I feel sorry for you.”
‘Yours sorry won’t make me feel better.”
“Anyway I’m Andreas, what’s your name ?” he introduced himself
“Find it out, don’t you guys love challenges? Now I give you one.”
I stood and pay my bill then I left him alone. But, he followed me. Right before I go he yelled at me.
“Wait, will you come back here for lunch tomorrow?”
“Try your luck, I might come back here.” I jumped inside my car and then left.
“I’ll wait here!!” he yelled again.

I drove my car back to my office. But my mind still left behind, in that café. Andreas, he is kinda cute, charming, and handsome. But, wait I knew nothing about him. I’d better forget him.
Tuesday
It’s lunch time again. Should I come back to that café to meet him again? Should I give him a chance? I found something strange every time I think about him. I scared. I don’t need another heartache. Then I realize, I already in front of that café, should I come in, should I look for another place? Or… oh God I don’t know what to do. Finally I decided to get down and come In to that café. I’m looking around, looking for him. He is not here. Well, somehow I’m glad he is not here. But I was hoping he will be here too. Well I’m already here, so I guess I’ll take my lunch here.
“You are here.”
Kinda shocked, he is right behind me. I don’t know where did he came from. But suddenly he just stood right behind me.
“Owh sorry, did I surprised you?” He said
“How could you, I had watched all around this room and I can’t find you.”
“Yes, I was in the kitchen, cooking for your lunch.”
I hardly believe in what he just said.
“I’m sorry, did you just say you was cooking my lunch?’ I tried to make it sure.
“Yes, I’m the owner and the chef here.”
“Chef? And owner? So I guess it doesn’t matter for you to spend all your time here waiting for me.”
“Hahaha, yeah, sorry for that. Well, have a seat, I’ll bring your lunch to your table.”
I sat down on my favorite spot. At the corner, near the window. It’s a lovely place here. I can stare out the window.
“Sorry to make you wait, here’s your favorite, Chicken Popcorn, made by myself.”
“How could you know this is my favorite?”
“Well, you always order that when you have your lunch here.”
“Owh, did you spying on me all this time?” I asked him.
“We..Well, it.. It’s not like that, really, I..I didn’t mean to spy on you.”
“And why did u blubbering like that?”
“Owh please, you ashamed me.” His face turns into red.
“Ahahha sorry, I didn’t mean that.” I started to find this guy is interesting.
“So I guess,err.. I’ll back to the kitchen.”
“Why don’t you join me here?”
“Can I ? Err.. I mean yes, yes, I would like to join you here.” He sit in front of me.
“Okay what happen to you?”
“Wha..what do you mean?”He is blushing again.
“Ahahah you are not yourself today, are you?” I laugh.
“why did you say that?”
“Well, yesterday you were so confident, so friendly. But now you look so nervous.”
“I’m sorry, yes I guess I’m myself today.”
“What happen to you?”
“No nothing. Really ahahah, I was joking on you.”
I was speechless, what does he mean by joking?
“What do you mean by joking?”
“Hahahahhahah.”
Confused. Worried. And speechless.

“I’m really owner of this café, I’m really the chef, but I’m but yeah, the blubbering, I’m just acting.”
He smiled. I swear he got the most beautiful smile I have ever seen in a man. I really mean it.
How I adore his smile.
“I’m just wondering how you will act when you are facing someone like that.”
“And then?”
“Well, you are kinda mean, when facing someone like that, you look like you’ll eat me with your words and make me even embarrassing. “
“Hahaha. I’ll take that as compliment.”
“Hahaha okay, I need to do something, please enjoy your meal.” He left me
I ate my lunch, delicious, more delicious than the same menu that I ever eat here before. Did he really make this by himself? Or is it just my own feeling?
“So how is it?” he came back
“t taste nice, did u really made this by yourself?”
“Of course, I really made this by myself, why you asking about that?” he wondering.
“Well, it’s kinda different with the previous chicken popcorn I have eaten here before.”
“Hahaha, do you want to see how I make it?”
“Owh I would like to, but unfortunately my lunch time is over, I have to get back to my office now.”
I stand up and go to the cashier to pay the bill
“Owh don’t, you are my special guest today.”
“Really? Well thank you so much.”
“Will you come back again tomorrow?”
“We’ll see.” I smiled and then left.
Wednesday
Here it is, lunch time again. Now I’m really scared with my feeling. I really scared that I have fallen in love with this guy, Andreas. I don’t know why, but ever since he talked to me, all of sudden my world has change. It looks like I have found a new start in him. But how could I believe him? I never knew this guy before. He came up in my life. He is just the owner of the café I used to take my lunch. Does he really own that café? As I remembered, I never met him. And from where did he watch me?
I’m afraid to come back to that café again. I don’t need another heart ache. I was thinking to live my life alone, just like I said, I am alone lonely loner inside my own loneliness. I don’t need anybody else. I am ready if I have to live alone, as long as my heart still in one piece.
Well I think I won’t go to his café today. I’ll just have my lunch at the mall. Far from that café, I don’t want there will be coincidence I will meet him if I go to the mall near his café. After I parked my car, I went to the perfumery corner first. My perfume bottle already empty so I need to buy the new one. When I got there, I am shocked. I saw him; yes I am sure that’s him. How could be? I have tried to avoid him. But still I met him here, far away from his café. I headed back to my car, no lunch for today! Go back to the office as soon as possible, and have my OB made some instant noodles for me!
Scared, scared and scared. How could faith do this to me. Oh please, I never hope to meet another man. One jerk form my past is enough, I don’t need another one. Shit!
After I got back to my office, my mood already ruined. I can’t work anymore. My mind filled with Andreas. I tried to convince myself that he is nothing, just another jerk, and I don’t need another jerk in my life. But it didn’t work, every time I tried to forget him, it always coming back to my mind. His smile, his face, his attitude, his chicken popcorn, his café. How could this happen to me? I decided to go home earlier, it’s still 3 P.M., but its better for me to just go home, take a long rest and when I get up, I hope all of this stuff is just a nightmare and I’ll forget about him.



Thursday
It’s lunch time again. This is not a dream, this is really real. About Andreas, about his café, about his chicken popcorn, about his smile, about his charm, all of it is a real thing. And I guess, I have fallen in love with these things. I have fallen in love with Andreas, the owner, and the chef of that café. The one who can make delicious chicken popcorn, I have fallen in love with every single past of Andreas’
I drove my car to that café again. I go inside that café, and I found him sitting in my favorite spot.
“Hey Stranger!! Over here!!” he called me
“Why did u called me as a stranger? I do have a name!” I came to him
“Hahaha, because until now, I still haven’t got your name.”
“Didn’t I challenge you to find out my name by yourself?”
“I already know your name, but I wouldn’t say it until we make a deal.”
“Okay, what kind of deal?”
“If I can say your name correctly, you’ll do two things for me.” He said
“Okay deal, but if you can’t tell it correctly, you’ll have to do two things for me.”
“That’s fine, Andy.”
“What did you just said?” I try to recall what just he said.
“ Yeah, I already know your name, Andy.”
“Oh my, how could you know my name?” I said.
“Well, as the owner, of course I have to know my entire costumer’s name.”
“Come on, that’s not even an answer!”
“Hahaha, you paid your bill with your credit card last Monday, don’t you remember?”
“Shit, I forgot about that, hahahahha! Well okay, I owe you two things now.”
“Okay the first one you have to come back here tomorrow.”
“And the second one?”
“I’ll tell you tomorrow.”
“Oh please, tell me now, so I can prepare myself.” I begged him
“No, you have to wait until tomorrow.”
“Okay, okay the winner takes all, so tomorrow I’ll come back here for lunch.”
“Great, now excuse me, I need to prepare something in the kitchen, please enjoy your meal.”
“But I haven’t ordered anything.”
“I know your favorite, chicken popcorn; I have made it special for you.”
“Hahaha, you are full with surprise, don’t you.” I laughed
He left me, I ate all of the chicken popcorn. It really tasted delicious; he is definitely a great chef. After I finished my lunch, I went to the cashier to pay the bill. But suddenly, the waiter said
“Sorry, but Mr. Andre has told me to not receive anything from you.”
“Oh he did it again, please your boss I really appreciate it.”
I left that café and head back to my office. Tomorrow I’ll have to do something for him. I wonder what it is.
Friday
Lunch time!! I come to that café again. He already sits on my favorite spot.
“Hey Andy come here!” He called me.
“So, I’m here now for lunch, what is the second now?”
“Now don’t be so fast, firstly, I want you to accept this.” He gave me a box wrapped nicely.
“What is this? Can I open it?”
“NO, don’t open it now.”
‘Why?’
“Just don’t, and now is the time for the second request. Go on date with me.”
“What?? Have you lost your mind?”
“No, now let’s move on.” He took my hand and we go to my car.
“Give me your key. I’ll drive.”
I gave him my key. Then I called my office telling them that I can’t go back because I have to deal something. He drove us to the mall. We have our lunch there, watching movie, having Starbucks. Just like what couple do, until the night falls.
“Can I stay at your home for tonight Andy?”
“Why? Don’t you have to go home? Ur family must be worry about you if you don’t come back.”
“Don’t worry, I live alone in this city.”
So then, we go back to my home. It was 10 P.M when we arrived. We cleaned ourselves and take a bath. We were about to sleep. But then he started another conversation.
“Andy, I have to tell you something.”
“What is it?”
“Andy, I love you, do you want to be my boyfriend?”
“What? How could you say so?”
“From the first time I saw you, I knew, I saw at someone that would be perfect for me.”
“Andre..”
“Please don’t cut me off, I saw the a lonely heart, and I want to accompany that heart, Andy, please, say yes.”
“Andre, at the first time, I’m afraid. I’m afraid if you are just another jerk. As the time goes by, I start to falling in love with you too.”
“Then accept me to be your boyfriend, I promise I’ll never be like other jerk.”
“I…I.. I don’t know… It just. Hmmp”
He kissed me, right on my lips. And I enjoy it, I didn’t feel any lust on his kiss, it’s fully with love. We spent that night deeply in love and passion, we are one now, and nothing can took him away from me, he is mine, and I am his.
Saturday
Right after he go, my phone ringing, I don’t recognize its number, but I answered that call.
“Hi my new boyfriend, what will you do tonight?” It’s him, Andreas.
“Okay you have my number, and I have yours, but why you delete all of my call logs?”
“Ahahaha I’m sorry honey, so, will you come to the café for lunch this afternoon?”
“Okay. I’ll see you there. Anyway, can I open the box now?”
“Owh I almost forgot about that, sure you can.”
“It’s a perfume, just like what I need, how could you knew it?”
“Hahaha, you always smell nice, but at Thrusday, I can’t smell any perfume from your body, so I guess you must be run out of it, and then I buy you another one.”
“Thanks Andre.”
“Well, see you at the café sweetie. And put off your cigar, I saw you light one just before I go”
“Okay, be careful”
Last Monday I was alone lonely loner, but now, I’m not alone anymore, I have Andreas by my side. I throw my cigar, and go back to sleep again for a while. I still have two hours before lunch time to go to Andreas’ café.


I drove my car to his café, excited, how I couldn’t be excited meeting my own boy friend? I arrived there, but something strange. They are closing. What happened? I asked one of the employees
“Excuse me, why do you closing this place?”
“Sorry sir, the police call us, they said Mr. Andreas got a car accident this morning, he is awfully wound, and doctor can’t save his life. Then we are closing this place, his family will take over this place now.”
“No way!!! You must be kidding me. NO!!NO!!” I sceamed
“I really sorry sir, but that’s the truth. I won’t make any joke about someone’s death sir.”
I walk back to my car, and burst my face with my own tears, drove back to my home, then lying on my bed. I was lying right where he lay last night. He is gone, once again my heart torn into pieces, just when it was already fixed. I cried, screamed, yelled, anything. Try to make sure that this is just a nightmare, but no, it’s not a dream, he is gone, death do us a part. Left me alone with the memories, one week, love that only last for a week.
(2976 words)

200pounds beauty

gw bongkar2 dvd lama gw n nntn lgi nih film
good movie, and forced me to think like this

love is meant for some one who has handsome or beautiful face

kejem bgt, akh namanya juga hidup, pasti kejem

harusnya gw sadar, dgn apa yg gw miliki skrg, gw ga akan bisa untuk ngedapetin org yg gw expect :))

bukannya jadi pesimis, tapi berusaha realistis, kodok ga akan bisa lompat ke bulan :))

Zodiac Online

i found this game, quiet good,kind of RPG game that have a lot of Quests

here is the game ^^

Zodiac Online took 12 Chinese zodiac for the character and the pet too.





then a go get some level by doing quest and killing monster





here you can do "wagon Quest" the wagon will give you a lot of prizes =D

BUT!!! becareful, other players, can hijack your wagon while you are out from the town


if you are success hijack another player's wagon, your character will looks like a bandit ^o^




here you can also fight monster that looks like player, you can say it's dopleganger >.<



1 more thing this game have pig fight event, you must defeat lvl30++ blue pig or red pig, and a slight chance to meet the illusion pig



this pig will give u very good exp and if you are lucky, you can get some IM too


this is my review bout this game, fell free to play it =D
here is the link

http://zodiac.enjoymmo.com/index.php

good bye for a while

'teet teet!'

Blackberry berbunyi.
Ada pesan di BBM yang masuk
excited, dari siapa BBM yang masuk

Ternyata hanya forwardan ga penting, isu demo besok bakal ada dimana.
Terlempar lagi badan yang capek setengah mati ke atas kasur kos yang sudah mulai ngga rata.
Sayup - sayup, alunan sang pianist di Winamp me-ninabobok-an

'teet teet!'
another message
peduli amat lah, seharian stres ngampus.
nanti aja balesnya
tapi ga tenang juga rasanya ngeliatan lampu kedip-kedip di pelupuk mata

okay-okay
BB pun kembali tergenggam di tangan
tiba-tiba badan seperti diberi suntikan steroid
it's him!!

'hei, knp itu statusmu?'
langsung sadar kalau status di BB belum diganti masih 'cry out loud'
'gpp, just want to cry it out loud'
jari yang tadinya lemes bisa mengetik dengan kencang
'tell me if i have problems dear, I'll try to help u'
senyum mengembang
'iya :) lg apa sekarang?"
akh, badan rasanya jadi sedikit lega
"lagi di airport, bentar lg mau terbang :)"
'owh, mau kmn?'
'ke luar, cari gawe disana :)'
'sampe kapan??'
' entah, blum ada plan yang pasti sih'
'i got to go now, udah dipanggil'
'well, goodbye then'
'bye, i'll try to call u when i got a chance :)
'thx =D'

he's gone now..
well then, goodbye for a while..
i hope we can see each other soon =)